♥ Friday, December 31, 2010

31th December 2010

Today go work with Dearie since we have to start work at 8.30am and finish work at 3.00pm~ After work Elynn jio to go 126~as i have asked Dearie to join us ~ to my surprise~he actually agreed wor~ Don't know tonight he will go other places anot~cause he never tell me anyone jio him go out ~ only said Kenneth ask him out de~

Last Day of this suay suay Year~ i wish next year will be better ~

♥琳琳♥

9:13 AM

♥ Thursday, December 30, 2010

30th December 2010

I am getting to realise the fact as time goes by~ He did not really love me anyway~for what he had done for me~I really appreciate it~ I don't want alot of things from him too and never expect him to~I just want someone who is true and will take care of me~I think i am too troublesome~thats why so long already and i still can't find the one or i wasted too much time when i was with my ex~

♥琳琳♥

11:52 AM

♥ Tuesday, December 28, 2010

28th December 2010

On 24th Dec 2010~Dearie wanted to meet his colleagues at Titanium at The Esplande~so i thought of going with him as it was our 5 Month Anniversary as well~ i wanted him to be happy~In fact~ we did enjoy ourselves and had lots of fun~

when he accompany me go toilet and just when we went back to our table~i put my small bag under the table~Then two of Yuling's friends said that they are leaving~so i checked my bag if its still around~My bag went missing~I was real shocked~so i told Dearie~he was angry and keep asking me to check properly~i checked under table and surrounding~its really gonezzz

Then we went toilet and also outside the club to find~he tried to called both my HP and at first there is tinging tone then the person who took it switch off my HP~After about one hour search i think~ then we give up and went to police station to make a report~

This is really the worst Christmas Celebration i ever had~I was always very careful with my personal things~ i really can't imagine that i can lost things that is important to me~ :(

25-26th December 2010
After everything~both of us is not in mood already~we went to Police Station to make report again as that night we did not managed to do the report due to the police officer on duty said that he need my IMEI no. for my IPhone and i can't provide~

At night~Quarrel again~As his friend jio him out to his house downstair for 30 mins talk~I am upset~his friend ask him if i am going to join them~i felt that he like don't want me to go~so i don't know what to answered him~then he started to say i always assume assume things which he never said~Then he said that how he know if its guys talk and if he bring me go his friend might felt weird~(In my heart, that is don't want me to go what, why he still said i assume, i am right that he don't want me to go) He cannt tahan what i said back to him and wanted to use the chair to beat me~although he didn't beat me just raise the chair in front of me~I still feel that one day he will lose his mind and beat me ba~Cause he is going crazy le~ i don't know why because of small quarrel will lead him to become like that~i wonder is it my character really that bad de~Quarrel until i wanted to shifted home~as i don't want to see him and will not quarrel~he said that i am avoiding then~why we cannot find a solution~I admitted i wanted to avoid~for the time being i also wanted~as i wanted to calm down~seeing him just won't calm me down~

27th Dec 2010
Quarrel ~ I actually wanted to go work~then he said that he will accompany me to do my things and somemore i was having diarrhea~ so i thought of going see doctor then~In the end~He told me that he need to go back to work as company really short handed~i was so angry lo~i seldom take MRT or BUSES de ma~how would i know how to go to so many different places myself~unless got people accompany me lar and he will mind ma~then he asked me to go alone~i was so lost~don't even know where to started off~ Haizzz I never wanted to make things difficult for him~in my heart i know that i got to asked him to go work~but another sided i wish he can accompany me go la~Then as i already told him to go to work since he so undecisive~but when i called him and i scolded him to make me never go work~He go crazy cause he don't know what i wanted~

I also don't know what to say~cause the more i say it make things worst~ In the end ~ he accompany me go do my things la~willingly or not i also don't know~

♥琳琳♥

9:57 AM

♥ Thursday, December 23, 2010

23th December 2010

I never gø tø work de~ not feeling well na~ waiting tø see doctor now~ the queue sø long wor~

I went tø Long John Silver tø had my late breakfast since I need tø wait før 11 peoples ahead~the 3 pcs chicken I ordered was such a disappointment~ I purposely ordered 3 pcs as I am abit hungry~ but there are sø small de :(

♥琳琳♥

8:06 PM

♥ Wednesday, December 22, 2010

22th December 2010

Wish to go for another Trip with Dearie~Anywhere also can~as long as just the two of us~ but is so hard... Cause budget budget and running out of time de~I wish to go oversea in January 2011~ now is near to end of December 2010~where to find cheap tour tour ar~ :(

Then Dearie planned Haiyat and Genting~don't know his mummy and sister want or don't want go de~so confuse now~He asked them and didn't get reply de or unsure reply ~ i really don't know~

I am not so looking forward to the trip already~

♥琳琳♥

9:52 AM

♥ Tuesday, December 21, 2010

21th December 2010

Sometimes i really wonder~why what i wanted to know i will never get to know and what i don't really wanted him to tell me~he reported to me~Oh my tian~

He said that i am paranoid ~no confidence ~inferior~ i admit i am~ he asked me go see doctor and yet he is not standing by my side~he say he don't want to think about this anymore~

He told me that he will give me time to change~but he is getting impaitence~i totally can't communicate with him on my feeling ~ is not that i don't want to~i am hard to express myself and i have tried to but he got so angry and like wanted to quarrel~

Really feeling so down and if got a hole i want to squeeze myself inside and nobody can find me~Now go home also sian~staying his house i also jialat~i m truely Homeless le~

When will i be happy again~

♥琳琳♥

8:39 PM

♥

21th December 2010

Suddenly heard this song in a Cab~ So nice~

歌曲：快乐歌手：张信哲专辑：挚爱 [ti:快乐]

[al:挚爱]

快乐词林夕曲 robert seng

给你我的甜给你我的苦

拥抱你留给我的孤独

收起我的感触好让你满足

为你我愿假装不在乎

也许爱情是不断的付出

心甘情愿放下赌注

直到奉献了所有的心血才愿意认输

不要你什么只要你快乐

亲吻你的眼泪都值得

不求你什么只求你记得

不管等到最后错的痛的苦的只有

我一个

(音乐演奏)

用我的怀抱包容你烦恼

享受你留给我的煎熬

用我的眼泪换你的微笑

只是为了让你过得好

也许爱情是不断的付出

心甘情愿放下赌注

直到奉献了所有的心血才愿意认输

不要你什么只要你快乐

亲吻你的眼泪都值得

不求你什么只求你记得

不管等到最后错的痛的苦的只有

我一个

(音乐演奏)

不要你什么只要你快乐

亲吻你的眼泪都值得

不求你什么只求你记得

不管等到最后错的痛的苦的只有

我一个

♥琳琳♥

3:12 PM

♥ Monday, December 20, 2010

18th December 2010

Had A Great Lunch with Dearie at The Asian Kitchen at Iluma~ The chicken is so nice :P

♥琳琳♥

8:52 PM

♥ Sunday, December 19, 2010

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4:11 PM

♥ Saturday, December 18, 2010

17th December 2010

我们到底怎么了？我只是跟他解释我昨天知道他会回家所以我跟老板要求早来上班然后可以六点下班～我知道他不能给我正确的时间不过没关系～碰碰运气～就因为我是text他的～他误会我是在怪他～我只是告诉他我的plan而已啊～我在text他之前也先提到我只是要跟他说～我本来plan的东西～

都会被误解～haizzz

♥琳琳♥

10:53 AM

♥ Friday, December 17, 2010

16th December 2010

After work~i go back home and Mei Mei jio me play Mahjong~in order to save time~ i ask mummy to cook Maggie Mee for me to eat~

Dearie called me up as today he having party at Camp~ so we chat awhile ~ after that he gone missing~as i sms and call him but i am unable to find him ~ Get abit angry~

Play until 3am plu~ still no respond for him~i give up~ lost Mahjong and can't find me~so i went to bed as tomorrow got to work 8.30am de~

17th December 2010

Morning i received his sms and he told me that he got drunk last nite and doze off~ I duno what to say~ maybe he really fall asleep ba~

♥琳琳♥

11:46 AM

♥ Thursday, December 16, 2010

15th December 2010

After work~ I meet Mei Mei at Nex as she bring Ah Boy go there walk walk~ then we buy the Bubble Tea and went back home~

Mummy got cook dinner~ i was so hungry~

♥琳琳♥

12:20 PM

♥ Wednesday, December 15, 2010

14th December 2010

After work as usual~i took a train with Eric to go back home~Mummy got cook fried rice so i don't need to buy dinner~

Dearie cannot book out tonight~so i didn't meet up with him~but we chat on the phone~

At around 11.00pm~i helped Mummy to dyed her hair and after that i bath and tried to get some sleep as i got OT tomorrow~

♥琳琳♥

9:05 AM

♥ Tuesday, December 14, 2010

13th December 2010

Around evening time~ Dearie finally get to know he can come out from his Camp~After i finish work~I on call a cab and went to find him~As his mum did not cook~he steam buns and i cook soup and he make coffee for me~ hehe~

In the morning~He wake up early and went back to camp as his friend fetch him~while i prepare myself for work as i got OT~

♥琳琳♥

9:02 AM

♥ Monday, December 13, 2010

12th December 2010

Morning, Dearie and his sister and i went to Rivervale Mall to have our breakfast at the Food Court~ Then we went to pray at Lor Ong Lye the Thai Temple with Dearie, his mummy and sister. Then we headed to Nex to find Singapore pool, so crowd, we decided to go to Central to find instead~ Then we accompany his mum to eat as she did not have her breakfast yet~

After that we took a bus from the Interchange to serangoon garden, his ah ma house~ We chit chat and play mahjong with his Ah ma~then had dinner too~

At nite~ we played games with his cousin and he chit chat with his uncle~ then around 9pm plu we went back home as he need to sleep early as need to wake up early to go back camp to report~

13th December 2010

Morning~ i saw Dearie preparing himself to go back camp~Zzz i can't get back to sleep after that~I don't like the feeling that he was not around me~ but i know i cannot say out~if not he will be thinking i am stupid again~he just go Reservist only ma~I also know na~

Anyway~ i today got OT also need to wake up early to prepare myself~

Just after my lunch time~ i received call from my office number and i saw Dearie's HP no. I was so happy and answer the call~ then i asked him is it bcos i never answer my hp thats why he called my office no. ~ he say nope~ he just wanted to call my office number~ then i thought awhile and disturb him~ is it he scare i never go to work~ LOLX he speechless and change subject~ zzz He suspected me wor~ and i can be so happy that he check on me~ think i siao liao lahhh~ :)

♥琳琳♥

9:48 AM

♥ Tuesday, December 7, 2010

7th December 2010

Feeling down~ just need someone to keep me accompany so that i won't be so lonely and anyhow think~ but i cannot find anyone that i can talked to or understand me~ Haizzz I am so helplessly living in this world~i guess this is Karma~

♥琳琳♥

3:17 PM

♥ Monday, December 6, 2010

6th December 2010

My Dearie went for his Reservist today~ but he will be back home around evening time~so glad that i can see him later~
Althought today working cannot see him~i still managed to come for OT and get my work kicking :)

♥琳琳♥

6:37 PM

♥ Wednesday, December 1, 2010

1st December 2010
Argue about my six sense na~ I feel that he is interested in one of the girl friend he had~ he never denied nor admit ~ how he want me tø think~ I am sø confuse now~ whenever I feel trouble ~ negative thoughts will come tø my mind~ I hate it ~

Why I cannot just think that he is with me now and we are happy~ why think those negative things :(

♥琳琳♥

12:09 PM