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♥ Thursday, April 28, 2011

Crazy me~

Sometimes people talked to me~ I felt so weird~ not sure what he tell his ex colleagues or friends around us~

I wonder how they see me~ really felt liked dun talked to anyone~ find a place and hide myself~

Cried out my pain in my heart to feel better ~ but it doesn't seem to help me~

I tried to get it over and think of the happy and sweet things ~ but it seem temporary for me~

I felt so lost once again~ didn't mean to hurt him by saying what I thinking~ but I think I should say out anything I dun feel comfortable as he asked me to~ but when I say out if it's really going to help us~ I really duno~
sometimes he will just say he bring me go see doctor~ I felt hurt but I think maybe I needed one~

I wanted to be alone as I want to avoid~ he don't allowed me to do that~

He asked me why I have to hurt him again and again then that time we shouldn't meet up and patch things up~ I feel hurt cos it's bcos I didn't want to leave him myself~

I tried to trust~ but in the end he say me if I can't be generous I shouldn't said what I have told him and when he did it when it happen~ I shouldn't be angry~
I know that I shouldn't angry since he is honest and tell me but I can't control~

I wanted to keep myself busy so that I won't think so much~ but I m so free to think in my mind~

I talked and talked to friends and colleagues it seem no helped~

I think I m hopeless~ why m I like this~ who can tell me?

I Thank him for being by my side even he cannot take it anymore~ but I see him like that I also feel pain~

I always thought of leaving will lessen the pain~ as I myself will just bear with it ~ as I will not think so much if he was not with me~

I cannot find an answer to my problem~

I m getting fuck up~

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