♥ Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Yesterday i finish worked and i went back home~while on my way~i msg to asked him where is he~he told me that he is still at Kopitiam drinking with his friend and last bottle already~ he is tired and wanted to go home sleep~

Then when i reached home~we still talked by texting and around 11.00pm~he never replied me~ i called him a few times and he rejected my call and then off his hp~I called many times~ then i realised i called 90 times Zzz

His friend's wife ask me to go find him~i tell her how to find when i don't even know where they are~if he wanted to avoid my calls ~ he wouldnt be so stupid still at kopitiam ma~i really pissed off de~

I continued called till duno how many time la then i give up calling~ard 1.15am he then called me and msg me~i just replied him that we are over~

Then he waited my replied till 1.38am and he msg that he go to sleep~i was online all the while~just that i do not know what to said ~ i am damn pissed off~ since he can't be bother already~why i should bother so much~i care so much for what ~ make myself miserable~

Where got pple asked you to trust them and he know that you hate it when you cant find him ~ this is the one thing i really hate MOST~he still purposely switch off his phone and tell me low batt~ i remember clearly that he told me he got full batt when he go out~ he go out at around 7pm plu~ till 11 pm only 4 hours which he didnt really used the phone at all since he chatting with his friend~ how can the phone be low batt~ i really duno lah~very sian~ already like that he still choose to do this to me~

what is he hinting to me~i think he just wanted to make me feel so SUX...

The feeling is worse than beating me up~ I cannot find him anywhere and how can he be so cruel and never think of my feeling at all~ am I not human ~ I am really disappointed and he never respect me at all~ just anyhow answer me or say he is still drinking I also happy~ is it really so hard to answer my questions? if you really love someone why can't do anything? I still rem that time we have a misunderstanding that I jio Barry go out~ he wanted me to clarify and msg him to asked him ~ I felt Pai Sei cos it's really a miscommunication ~ I also listened to him and msg my Fren~ what would he think? although I dun care how he would think as the main point is to prove myself to him that I nv jio Barry out~ After the incident~ I nv mention anything le~ but whenever we quarrel~ he had to always bring the past and say me~ I also try to bear with it and keep quiet~ until I cannot tahan as he talked too long le eg. 1 to 2 hours ~ then I stopped him~ he never realize people feeling~ only want people to feel his feeling and understand him~ even when he himself ask me to exchange with him by writing how much I know him and he know me~ I wrote to him and I did think alot before I write and he just tell me that he too busy and nv write~ when I force him to write to me as I really want to know how much he really understand me~ in the end ~ he copy right mine~ I am so disappointed~ must all this be said out? I dun understand ~ I all keep in my heart as if I said out my feeling~ I am still wrong~ I always lost to reason out with him ~ I duno how to express myself~I hate my characters ~ but I m still who I m~ :(

♥琳琳♥

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